UMMM, THAT WOULD BE A NO!

Well, the letter came today.  The one I had been waiting for.  As I opened the mailbox and pulled it out, I knew without looking that it would be a no.  It was too thin, too small.  I opened it with intrepidation.   "We regret to inform you...."  So, what happens next?  This was the one school I applied to, the one I wanted to go to.  To say that I am disappointed would be an understatement. I know this is supposed to be one of those times when you say, "hey, God has a plan, etc."  To be honest, that is sort of hard right now.  Maybe in the future I will be able to look back and say that, but for now I'm not feeling it.  It has only been a few hours though.  Tomorrow I will get up and the sun will be shining (or not) and my day will progess a little like the one I lived today and then everyday after that.  There will be other PhD programs and jobs and seminars and stuff.  In other words, life will go on.  In the words of Keith Urban, "tonight, I want to cry...."